Thursday, March 6, 2014

Bad Words

I was just thinking about how when you're a new believer you really don't understand all the Christian norms or Christian speak. This morning I noticed that Patches had a dog bowl out that we had given to him for Christmas one year. On the inside of it it reads "lucky dog". I remember hesitating to buy it because the word lucky in Christianese is a bad word.
When I was a new  believer in Christ, I recall hearing someone say "No you are not lucky you are blessed". And I felt bad that I had used the word lucky and filed it away in my brain not to say that word again. Now I don't know if it's wrong or right to say lucky,I think it's actually more of a heart issue. But over the years, I think it's been about 10 years now I've been a believer, I have also corrected people in such tones.  'You aren't lucky, you're blessed. You should pray rather than worry.' The list goes on and on.
But really what is the point to say these things off the cuff to people? If we feel convicted about our speech, change it. Do we really sense the Lord giving us a peace about saying all these judgemental, unbiblical cliché s to people?
Something to ponder.
And if you ever met Patches, you would agree he is one Lucky Dog.

Friday, February 7, 2014


As many of you know we are moving back to CA. This decision was made with a lot of emotions, on my part . Matt had emotions too he's just the more practical of the two.

Back in August Matt started to feel a tug to move back to CA.  When he shared this with me I was in shock.  Surely we were meant to be here for life. I love TX and the friendships I have made here. There was no way I was going to go back to Modesto. Surely there was nothing more we could do with our lives then to serve at Gospel For Asia. No, we are never going back to Modesto.

But God has a funny way of turning our nevers into yeses.

God showed me near the end of August thru a bible study to stop obsessing over my future.
In September He showed me thru Exodus how Aaron built the calf because he didn't wait on the Lord, that I was not waiting on Him too.

He showed me in October through Leviticus how our sacrifices are examined, not through us but through Jesus Christ.

In November I heard Charles Stanley on the radio talking about the fear of the Lord. How we need to trust His plan and not fear anyone else, just God. That freed me from fearing what our friends and family would think. Through this message God encouraged me not to fear man, He was in control.

In December I was really freaking out because our lease was up in February and Matt didn't have a job. But God gave me the verse that is written on our wall 'Be still and know that I am God'. Was I being still?

In January I was finally coming to terms with moving back home but still a bit worried for our future and one day Rie ran up to me and gave me a memory verse card and said "here mama this is for you". The verse was Isaiah 45.2 "I will go before you and make the crooked places straight. "

Wow I am so thankful I have Him to lead me in this life and to trust that His ways our better than mine.

As I have been saying goodbye to so many cherished friends here many of them are saying " I am so excited for you". When I first started hearing this I was puzzled. But now I am thankful that I can be excited for my future, not afraid.

Even though Matt doesn't have a job yet, and we are most likely going to be living with family. (THANKS Mark and Lala) This change will grow us and He will use us.
Yes I am sad to say goodbyes , but happy to say Hello to what God has for us.

( and if you sang Hello in your head like the Lionel Richie song you are awesome)

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Phone Post

Hello my long lost friends!
I was blessed with a new phone, a new free phone can't beat that.
Anyway I am hoping that I will blog more now that I can do it from me phone.
(That was not auto correct, that wasy pirate voice)

Today we went on a playdate at Preston wood and here is a pic of the girls with their friend Ben.


Tuesday, December 10, 2013


We have been stuck in the house for the last 5 days, snow and ice.The roads are really dangerous. I can not stand driving in harsh weather, it is actually one of my fears.
The girls and I have been listening to the Frozen soundtrack over and over and over again.
It has been helping me process all we have been going thru lately.
My dear friend has just been diagnosed with cancer.
It has been very hard to be far from her.
But this music has inspired me to write a poem, I just sat down in the chaos of life and felt I needed to write.
I have only written a few poems in my life, and they have been in highly stressful times.
I am thankful He gives us these outlets to help us cope thru hard things.

Feeling Frozen

while the world keeps on feeling
trying not to think
holding it all inside
He is good

feeling frozen, feelings frozen

He is still good
why am i mad inside
still a selfish sinner
with great pride
i want my friend
want her here forever

feeling frozen, feelings frozen

knowing forever is only for heaven
heaven can't come soon enough
wanna go first
no one i love ahead of me
self loving pride

feeling frozen, feelings frozen

all that is left is to have

I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back.....

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Will I Walk By Faith?

Yesterday one of my best friends called me, she had news,really bad news.

She has cancer...................................................................................................
the words after that were a blur................
the end of the conversation seemed to have ended with a hundred "I love yous", and crying out to God.
Please pray for my dear friend, Matt's cousin who is more like a sister to him. She is a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and she loves Jesus.
The lyrics to this song are for her, and her family, and me, and you.............

Walk By Faith
Jeremy Camp

"Would I believe you when you would say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day

Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Help me to win my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do

yeah, yeah , yeah, yeah, yeah, ya


Well I'm broken- but I still see Your face
Well You've spoken- pouring Your words of grace

[chorus x2]

Well hallelujah, hallelu
(I will walk by faith)
Well hallelujah, hallelu
(I will walk by faith)

I will walk, I will walk, I will walk by faith
I will, I will, I will walk by faith"

He is still God, and He still loves you!

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

My Hubbies Blog Debut.

My husband Matt is a writer and he is just now starting a blog. That may sound odd to you, but he wants to make sure what he says has meaning. Unlike me who just talks and talks all day long to process the world around me. 

I am happy to share an excerpt from his blog with you. 

(and hopefully I will start blogging more soon :O).....................................

A Tribute to My Grandmother

This wasn’t how I initially planned to start my blog, but when my grandmother, Madeline Fay Gallagher, passed away last Sunday morning, I thought there was no better way to kick off this little venture than by paying tribute to a very special woman. I will miss you, grandma.

I always had trouble sleeping at my grandparents’ house. There were two reasons. One, I was always a combination of too excited and wired from the array of candy that always adorned grandma’s kitchen counter, arranged in neat, clean jars beneath the cabinets. My grandparents’ home was a wonderland of sorts. You could swim, play ping pong or billiards or tennis or basketball or even a grand piano (poorly, in my case). There were also a collection of board games, toys and books which lay undisturbed the odd days grandchildren weren’t invading their home. With all of that treasure waiting for you, sleep felt like a waste of perfectly good frolicking time.

The second reason I would have trouble sleeping was my grandparents’ home turned surprisingly spooky in the evenings. The eeriness increased the farther back in the house you traveled, culminating in the ominous back bedrooms, nearest the pool. The combination of a back porch light against a large pomegranate tree created shadows through the window, which gesticulated threateningly against the backlit walls. The house’s lengthy hallway leading to the back bedrooms would also yawn and creak throughout the night, as if some apparition was pacing back and forth through the corridor. I would lie in bed frightened for a time until I imagined the creaking house was just grandpa keeping watch outside..............


Monday, September 30, 2013

Family Time

I know, I know, I haven't posted in a very long time....sorry :(

Last week Lala came and visited us. Matt took Friday off and we went to Fort Worth.
We visited the Zoo and the Stockyards.
Two very worthwhile places to visit.
The animals at the zoo were all out and happy to see us. The food at the stockyards was amazing. We ate at the Love Shack.
Here are some pics from our day............

Well that's about all the energy I have right now :O)
Hope to blog some more soon.
God Bless You!